Sorrows of your childhood rolled in my oldage .....today i am 72 yrs
I was unaware of your presence in my embrace when you were part of my life .....i can feel the two HEARTBEATS in my heart. one of your heart which was as soothing & relaxing as the mother can feel of her child .
i was unaware of this feeling before and could not find why all this is caming to my mind . Why the feeling of loneliness has disappear ? Why i can feel the presence of the child within me ? Why i could not find that you were inside me growing with SMALL FEETS, SMALL ARMS, STARS LIKE EYES & calling me loud ..........mummyyy....mummmmyyyy....mummmmmyyy.
I WAS UNAWARE ABOUT YOU UNTIL I COULD FEEL YOUR PRESENCE IN MY UTERUS.
i came to know you were there & i m going to give you birth after 3 months . you came as a blessing of life . as it was very sudden & i could not find out your presence & my pregnancy earlier was a GOD's GIFT . i named you VISHU as a gift of god .. you develop with your elder brother. he was so much attached to you as you were his brother from generations.
he nurtured you with love & care & also his embrace of protectiveness for life. after 2 months, when you started crying for day long, i was very tensed & could not find your problem and feeling so helpless. doctors stated you have liver problem, but still as a mother my heart was poundaring in & out that can the problem with liver make you cry so much.
next day i went on to next doctor to consult with you problem . it is the biggest hospital of our place in our city.
JUST THAT LAST TWO DROPS OF WATER ALL YOU NEED
when i reach hospital your dad accompanied me to the team of the doctors we have called to get you diagnosed . but i was too late to feel your presence and you have finised in all manners. i could not evalauate whether your presence was just the matter of 2 months, or to taught me that how you feel when most presicious thing is snached from you .
Your elder brother asked from me day and night about your absence & i could just make excuses for his every question.
I was unaware of your presence in my embrace when you were part of my life .....i can feel the two HEARTBEATS in my heart. one of your heart which was as soothing & relaxing as the mother can feel of her child .
i was unaware of this feeling before and could not find why all this is caming to my mind . Why the feeling of loneliness has disappear ? Why i can feel the presence of the child within me ? Why i could not find that you were inside me growing with SMALL FEETS, SMALL ARMS, STARS LIKE EYES & calling me loud ..........mummyyy....mummmmyyyy....mummmmmyyy.
I WAS UNAWARE ABOUT YOU UNTIL I COULD FEEL YOUR PRESENCE IN MY UTERUS.
i came to know you were there & i m going to give you birth after 3 months . you came as a blessing of life . as it was very sudden & i could not find out your presence & my pregnancy earlier was a GOD's GIFT . i named you VISHU as a gift of god .. you develop with your elder brother. he was so much attached to you as you were his brother from generations.
he nurtured you with love & care & also his embrace of protectiveness for life. after 2 months, when you started crying for day long, i was very tensed & could not find your problem and feeling so helpless. doctors stated you have liver problem, but still as a mother my heart was poundaring in & out that can the problem with liver make you cry so much.
next day i went on to next doctor to consult with you problem . it is the biggest hospital of our place in our city.
JUST THAT LAST TWO DROPS OF WATER ALL YOU NEED
when i reach hospital your dad accompanied me to the team of the doctors we have called to get you diagnosed . but i was too late to feel your presence and you have finised in all manners. i could not evalauate whether your presence was just the matter of 2 months, or to taught me that how you feel when most presicious thing is snached from you .
Your elder brother asked from me day and night about your absence & i could just make excuses for his every question.
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